Never have I ever been in jail so many times in my life, at least so far as I can remember. Did I spend any jail time way back before Cayde-1? Who knows? Anyway, it was cute the first time. I figured it'd be something to check off the 'things I did on an alien planet'. There was no processing involved, all they did was ask my number or something and stick some funny little knob on me that kinda tingled, then stuck me in a holding cell. Not sure what the knobs do, I can pluck them right off.
So the first time I figured I'd behave, sit quiet, soak everything in. One of ours comes to spring me. I only recognized him from the brief chat we had about the new light that appeared outside of the city. Anyway- this kid! Talk about slick. I need to step up my game. Come on Cayde, you're getting soft. Here I thought all of us from Temba would be of the same mind, look out for each other and all that. This kid saw opportunity and took it, so now I owe him. So guess who's got himself a bodyguard position? At least it's not a full-time thing, and I told him straight up I wasn't looking forward to babysitting anyone.
I could be more upset, but I guess it's partially on me for letting my guard down. Well, at least this way I can keep an eye on him too. Not sure what he intends to play at, but I don't know if he has the better interests of people at heart.
[This note is slightly crumpled around the edges.]
I don't play well with loss. I think I've written this before, somewhere. Not here. Doesn't matter, I guess, but the point still stands.
Guess it's my fault for letting myself get close, for playing this out like a vacation. I knew from the start it wasn't going to be a longterm, but it was a chance to do something different and not worry about Vanguard business and whatever else we've got brewing out there. And I'm sure there's something brewing out there. Ikora won't say, but there's something that's been on her mind and that saying about actions speaking louder than words? That's true.
Where was I? Right. Loss. Things went from quiet to panic in a hot two seconds. Just like that, I had to tackle the thought that I wasn't going to see two of my favorite troublemakers anymore. And that hit hard.
Jon, he just vanished. How do you figure? Between the creepy messages that screwed up my tablet's backlog and him not being in his usual hole- and then there's just this feeling you get, you know? Next thing I know, I see a falling star.
There is no brushing off that kind of impact from that kind of height. I should know, I've broken legs leaping across gaps less than half that. And yet, somehow? Tony Stark survived. A mess, but in one piece. And as me and Catra pried him out of that mangled armor...
I've told myself I wouldn't let anything happen to these people. So long as I'm here, this city's my Last City. When we go home...
Okay Cayde, pull yourself together. What happened to optimism? It's fine. We're good. Seize each day- there's a quote or something, isn't there? And when it seems like there's nothing else, I've always got my Queen.
[Written on the back of a receipt for a GrubDash ramen order.]
Nothing's right. This isn't the city. Isn't even my city. But most everyone I know from Temba's here and got a part in this place like they belong here.
Lark says it's magic. Makes as much sense as anything. Sometimes if I sit real quiet, I can feel it. I remember things I shouldn't know. But in my gut, if I still had any, I just know.
This is wrong.
Haven't lost anyone. They're all here. But it still feels that way.
People may think that they can't live with their hurts, with the loss and the sadness, that little voice that sometimes creeps up in the back of your mind to remind you of all the negative things. But it's still a part of us, what makes us who we are. I know I've talked about my feelings on loss, about my somewhat unhealthy coping mechanism, but I will tell you, to feel nothing is so much worse.
I'm not sure that the darkness I saw was the same sort of Darkness that I witnessed try to obliterate everything around us, but in that moment, it took everything. All those emotions, even the bad ones, the sadness, the fear- suddenly they were all just -gone-. I won't lie, it was freeing in its own way. Not caring about anything? About all the things that had been bothering you, about the people who forgot, or the things that should be done? It's a huge weight off your shoulders. But then there's nothing left on the other side of that, and it is oh so very cold.
That's not who I am. If that's a hint of 7, I don't want to be him.
I know I've been avoiding talking about it. For me it feels like there's nothing to talk about. We all got pulled into something crazy, and thankfully we were able to break free of it. Things are back to normal now, or at least that's what I'd like to say. It's strange when you have an extra set of memories knocking around in your head. I remember things about pre-Golden Age culture that I have no business knowing. Makes me wonder what all everyone else is dealing with. Maybe I'm simplifying too much, but I'll just be happy that no one looks at me crosseyed. In the meantime, the bar's getting popular. Wasn't really my intention at least in reason, but if it helps people out a little, well, I'm fine with that.
Hey Ace. Long time no write. I feel like I've said as much, somewhere. Maybe on that note that went walking away with what I thought was a pile of rocks.
I have finally gotten that neon sign up and lit up in the bar. Looks great- I sketched it out here but the lack of color and well, lighting, hardly does it any justice.
[A sketch of the neon sign for the Deep End. ]
We've had more people popping up around here, and a whole other city for exploring. That's where I spent a good chunk of the previous month, actually. Got a rough map, might refine it some. Turns out that this new place is a mirror image of Temba, just on a slightly smaller scale, I think. Also, the previous inhabitants may very well have been the Graq, but how that works out is anyone's guess so far.
No one's disappeared lately, not since Holliday. That one still stings, but I guess I can't be mad for it. She's back where she oughta be. That's good enough for me, or it should be. Guess it's my fault for getting my hopes up about Sparrow races and all.
There's been some influx of kids, which is concerning, but given everything else, whatever parameters the Agrii have set up for bringing in 'heroes' seems pretty broad. At least they're pretty spunky. This one kid, Alberto? I think you'd get along with him. Fearless, eager to see and try out new things. He asked me to teach him how to scout. I think he's already got a good baseline to start with. How early is too early to start training Hunters?
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Date: 2021-03-20 06:42 am (UTC)๐ฎโด ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ป๐พ๐๐๐ ๐๐พ๐โฏ โ ๐ป๐พโ๐๐โฏ๐น โ'๐น ๐ทโฏ๐ฝ๐ถ๐โฏ, ๐๐พ๐ ๐๐๐พโฏ๐, ๐โด๐ถ๐ โฏ๐โฏ๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ ๐พ๐. ๐ช๐โฏ โด๐ป โด๐๐๐ ๐ธโด๐โฏ๐ ๐โด ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐โ ๐โฏ. โ โด๐๐๐ ๐โฏ๐ธโดโ๐๐พ๐โฏ๐น ๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐ป๐โด๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ท๐๐พโฏ๐ป ๐ธ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐โฏ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐น ๐ถ๐ทโด๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐โฏ๐ ๐๐พโ๐ฝ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐ โฏ๐ถ๐โฏ๐น โด๐๐๐๐พ๐นโฏ โด๐ป ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ธ๐พ๐๐. ๐๐๐๐๐ถ๐- ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐๐พ๐น! ๐ฏ๐ถ๐๐ ๐ถ๐ทโด๐๐ ๐๐๐พ๐ธ๐. โ ๐โฏโฏ๐น ๐โด ๐๐โฏ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ โ๐ถ๐โฏ. ๐โด๐โฏ โด๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐นโฏ, ๐โด๐'๐โฏ โโฏ๐๐๐พ๐โ ๐โด๐ป๐. โโฏ๐โฏ โ ๐๐ฝโด๐โ๐ฝ๐ ๐ถ๐๐ โด๐ป ๐๐ ๐ป๐โด๐ ๐ฏโฏ๐๐ท๐ถ ๐โด๐๐๐น ๐ทโฏ โด๐ป ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐๐ถ๐โฏ ๐๐พ๐๐น, ๐โดโด๐ โด๐๐ ๐ปโด๐ โฏ๐ถ๐ธ๐ฝ โด๐๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐ถ๐๐น ๐ถ๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐. ๐ฏ๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐๐พ๐น ๐๐ถ๐ โด๐ ๐ โด๐๐๐๐๐พ๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐น ๐โดโด๐ ๐พ๐, ๐โด ๐โด๐ โ โด๐โฏ ๐ฝ๐พ๐. ๐ฎโด โ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐๐ฝโด'๐ โโด๐ ๐ฝ๐พ๐๐โฏ๐๐ป ๐ถ ๐ทโด๐น๐โ๐๐ถ๐๐น ๐ โด๐๐พ๐๐พโด๐? ๐๐ ๐โฏ๐ถ๐๐ ๐พ๐'๐ ๐โด๐ ๐ถ ๐ป๐๐๐-๐๐พ๐โฏ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ, ๐ถ๐๐น โ ๐โด๐๐น ๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐๐๐๐ถ๐พโ๐ฝ๐ ๐๐ โ ๐๐ถ๐๐'๐ ๐โดโด๐๐พ๐โ ๐ปโด๐๐๐ถ๐๐น ๐โด ๐ท๐ถ๐ท๐๐๐พ๐๐๐พ๐โ ๐ถ๐๐โด๐โฏ.
โ ๐ธโด๐๐๐น ๐ทโฏ ๐โด๐โฏ ๐๐ ๐โฏ๐, ๐ท๐๐ โ โ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐พ๐'๐ ๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐พ๐ถ๐๐๐ โด๐ ๐โฏ ๐ปโด๐ ๐โฏ๐๐๐พ๐โ ๐๐ โ๐๐ถ๐๐น ๐นโด๐๐. ๐ฒโฏ๐๐, ๐ถ๐ ๐โฏ๐ถ๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐๐ถ๐ โ ๐ธ๐ถ๐ ๐โฏโฏ๐ ๐ถ๐ โฏ๐โฏ โด๐ ๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐โดโด. ๐ฉโด๐ ๐๐๐โฏ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ฝโฏ ๐พ๐๐โฏ๐๐น๐ ๐โด ๐ ๐๐ถ๐ ๐ถ๐, ๐ท๐๐ โ ๐นโด๐'๐ ๐๐โด๐ ๐พ๐ป ๐ฝโฏ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ทโฏ๐๐โฏ๐ ๐พ๐๐โฏ๐โฏ๐๐๐ โด๐ป ๐ โฏโด๐ ๐โฏ ๐ถ๐ ๐ฝโฏ๐ถ๐๐.
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Date: 2021-09-03 03:29 am (UTC)So the first time I figured I'd behave, sit quiet, soak everything in. One of ours comes to spring me. I only recognized him from the brief chat we had about the new light that appeared outside of the city. Anyway- this kid! Talk about slick. I need to step up my game. Come on Cayde, you're getting soft. Here I thought all of us from Temba would be of the same mind, look out for each other and all that. This kid saw opportunity and took it, so now I owe him. So guess who's got himself a bodyguard position? At least it's not a full-time thing, and I told him straight up I wasn't looking forward to babysitting anyone.
I could be more upset, but I guess it's partially on me for letting my guard down. Well, at least this way I can keep an eye on him too. Not sure what he intends to play at, but I don't know if he has the better interests of people at heart.
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Date: 2021-05-05 05:56 pm (UTC)โ ๐นโด๐'๐ ๐ ๐๐ถ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐ฝ ๐โด๐๐. โ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐๐ โ'๐โฏ ๐๐๐พ๐๐โฏ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐ทโฏ๐ปโด๐โฏ, ๐โด๐โฏ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ. ๐ฉโด๐ ๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ. ๐โดโฏ๐๐'๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐โฏ๐, โ โ๐โฏ๐๐, ๐ท๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ โด๐พ๐๐ ๐๐๐พ๐๐ ๐๐๐ถ๐๐น๐.
๐ข๐โฏ๐๐ ๐พ๐'๐ ๐๐ ๐ป๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐ปโด๐ ๐โฏ๐๐๐พ๐โ ๐๐๐โฏ๐๐ป โโฏ๐ ๐ธ๐โด๐โฏ, ๐ปโด๐ ๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐พ๐โ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐ โด๐๐ ๐๐พ๐โฏ ๐ถ ๐๐ถ๐ธ๐ถ๐๐พโด๐. โ ๐๐โฏ๐ ๐ป๐โด๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐๐๐ถ๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐'๐ โโด๐พ๐โ ๐โด ๐ทโฏ ๐ถ ๐โด๐โ๐โฏ๐๐, ๐ท๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐ถ๐ ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐ธโฏ ๐โด ๐นโด ๐โด๐โฏ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ ๐น๐พ๐ป๐ปโฏ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐น ๐โด๐ ๐โด๐๐๐ ๐ถ๐ทโด๐๐ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐โ๐๐ถ๐๐น ๐ท๐๐๐พ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐โฏ๐โฏ๐ โฏ๐๐โฏ ๐โฏ'๐โฏ โโด๐ ๐ท๐โฏ๐๐พ๐โ โด๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ. ๐๐๐น โ'๐ ๐๐๐โฏ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ'๐ ๐โด๐โฏ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ ๐ท๐โฏ๐๐พ๐โ โด๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ. โ๐โด๐๐ถ ๐โด๐'๐ ๐๐ถ๐, ๐ท๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ'๐ ๐โด๐โฏ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐'๐ ๐ทโฏโฏ๐ โด๐ ๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐๐พ๐๐น ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐พ๐โ ๐ถ๐ทโด๐๐ ๐ถ๐ธ๐๐พโด๐๐ ๐๐ โฏ๐ถ๐๐พ๐โ ๐โด๐๐นโฏ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐โด๐๐น๐? ๐ฏ๐ฝ๐ถ๐'๐ ๐๐๐โฏ.
๐ฒ๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ ๐๐ถ๐ โ? โ๐พโ๐ฝ๐. โโด๐๐. ๐ฏ๐ฝ๐พ๐โ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐ป๐โด๐ ๐๐๐พโฏ๐ ๐โด ๐ ๐ถ๐๐พ๐ธ ๐พ๐ ๐ถ ๐ฝโด๐ ๐๐โด ๐โฏ๐ธโด๐๐น๐. ๐ฅ๐๐๐ ๐๐พ๐โฏ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐, โ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐น ๐โด ๐๐ถ๐ธ๐๐โฏ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐๐ฝโด๐โ๐ฝ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ โ ๐๐ถ๐๐'๐ โโด๐พ๐โ ๐โด ๐โฏโฏ ๐๐โด โด๐ป ๐๐ ๐ป๐ถ๐โด๐๐พ๐โฏ ๐๐โด๐๐ท๐โฏ๐๐ถ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐โด๐โฏ. ๐๐๐น ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐น.
๐ฅโด๐, ๐ฝโฏ ๐ฟ๐๐๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐พ๐๐ฝโฏ๐น. โโด๐ ๐นโด ๐โด๐ ๐ป๐พโ๐๐โฏ? โฌโฏ๐๐โฏโฏ๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ธ๐โฏโฏ๐ ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐๐ถโโฏ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ธ๐โฏ๐โฏ๐น ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ถ๐ท๐โฏ๐'๐ ๐ท๐ถ๐ธ๐๐โดโ ๐ถ๐๐น ๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐โด๐ ๐ทโฏ๐พ๐โ ๐พ๐ ๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐๐๐๐ถ๐ ๐ฝโด๐โฏ- ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ'๐ ๐ฟ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐ปโฏโฏ๐๐พ๐โ ๐โด๐ โโฏ๐, ๐โด๐ ๐๐โด๐? ๐ฉโฏ๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ โ ๐๐โด๐, โ ๐โฏโฏ ๐ถ ๐ป๐ถ๐๐๐พ๐โ ๐๐๐ถ๐.
๐ฏ๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ ๐พ๐ ๐โด ๐ท๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ โด๐ป๐ป ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐พ๐๐น โด๐ป ๐พ๐๐ ๐ถ๐ธ๐ ๐ป๐โด๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐พ๐๐น โด๐ป ๐ฝโฏ๐พโ๐ฝ๐. โ ๐๐ฝโด๐๐๐น ๐๐โด๐, โ'๐โฏ ๐ท๐โด๐โฏ๐ ๐โฏโ๐ ๐โฏ๐ถ๐ ๐พ๐โ ๐ถ๐ธ๐โด๐๐ โ๐ถ๐ ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐ป ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐. ๐๐๐น ๐โฏ๐, ๐โด๐โฏ๐ฝโด๐? ๐ฏโด๐๐ ๐ฎ๐๐ถ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐พ๐โฏ๐น. ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐, ๐ท๐๐ ๐พ๐ โด๐โฏ ๐ ๐พโฏ๐ธโฏ. ๐๐๐น ๐ถ๐ ๐โฏ ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐ถ๐๐๐ถ ๐ ๐๐พโฏ๐น ๐ฝ๐พ๐ โด๐๐ โด๐ป ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ถ๐โ๐โฏ๐น ๐ถ๐๐โด๐...
โ'๐โฏ ๐โด๐๐น ๐๐๐โฏ๐๐ป โ ๐โด๐๐๐น๐'๐ ๐โฏ๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ โฏ๐ ๐โด ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ ๐ โฏโด๐ ๐โฏ. ๐ฎโด ๐โด๐โ ๐ถ๐ โ'๐ ๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ, ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐ธ๐พ๐๐'๐ ๐๐ โ๐ถ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐. ๐ฒ๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐โฏ โโด ๐ฝโด๐โฏ...
๐ช๐๐ถ๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐นโฏ, ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐โด๐๐๐โฏ๐๐ป ๐โดโโฏ๐๐ฝโฏ๐. ๐ฒ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ โฏ๐โฏ๐น ๐โด โด๐ ๐๐พ๐๐พ๐๐? โ๐'๐ ๐ป๐พ๐โฏ. ๐ฒโฏ'๐โฏ โโดโด๐น. ๐ฎโฏ๐พ๐โฏ โฏ๐ถ๐ธ๐ฝ ๐น๐ถ๐- ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ'๐ ๐ถ ๐๐โด๐โฏ โด๐ ๐โด๐โฏ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ, ๐พ๐๐'๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ? ๐๐๐น ๐๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐พ๐ ๐โฏโฏ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐โฏ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ'๐ ๐โด๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ โฏ๐๐โฏ, โ'๐โฏ ๐ถ๐๐๐ถ๐๐ โโด๐ ๐๐ ๐ฌ๐โฏโฏ๐.
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Date: 2021-09-03 03:29 am (UTC)I don't play well with loss. I think I've written this before, somewhere. Not here. Doesn't matter, I guess, but the point still stands.
Guess it's my fault for letting myself get close, for playing this out like a vacation. I knew from the start it wasn't going to be a longterm, but it was a chance to do something different and not worry about Vanguard business and whatever else we've got brewing out there. And I'm sure there's something brewing out there. Ikora won't say, but there's something that's been on her mind and that saying about actions speaking louder than words? That's true.
Where was I? Right. Loss. Things went from quiet to panic in a hot two seconds. Just like that, I had to tackle the thought that I wasn't going to see two of my favorite troublemakers anymore. And that hit hard.
Jon, he just vanished. How do you figure? Between the creepy messages that screwed up my tablet's backlog and him not being in his usual hole- and then there's just this feeling you get, you know? Next thing I know, I see a falling star.
There is no brushing off that kind of impact from that kind of height. I should know, I've broken legs leaping across gaps less than half that. And yet, somehow? Tony Stark survived. A mess, but in one piece. And as me and Catra pried him out of that mangled armor...
I've told myself I wouldn't let anything happen to these people. So long as I'm here, this city's my Last City. When we go home...
Okay Cayde, pull yourself together. What happened to optimism? It's fine. We're good. Seize each day- there's a quote or something, isn't there? And when it seems like there's nothing else, I've always got my Queen.
0518 (Lost Note)
Date: 2021-05-19 06:54 am (UTC)๐ฉโด๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ'๐ ๐๐พโ๐ฝ๐. ๐ฏ๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐พ๐๐'๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ธ๐พ๐๐. โ๐๐'๐ โฏ๐โฏ๐ ๐๐ ๐ธ๐พ๐๐. โฌ๐๐ ๐โด๐๐ โฏ๐โฏ๐๐โด๐โฏ โ ๐๐โด๐ ๐ป๐โด๐ ๐ฏโฏ๐๐ท๐ถ'๐ ๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ ๐ถ๐๐น โโด๐ ๐ถ ๐ ๐ถ๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐ ๐๐ถ๐ธโฏ ๐๐พ๐โฏ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐ทโฏ๐โด๐โ ๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ.
โ๐ถ๐๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐ ๐พ๐'๐ ๐๐ถโ๐พ๐ธ. โณ๐ถ๐โฏ๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐๐๐ธ๐ฝ ๐โฏ๐๐โฏ ๐ถ๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ. ๐ฎโด๐โฏ๐๐พ๐โฏ๐ ๐พ๐ป โ ๐๐พ๐ ๐โฏ๐ถ๐ ๐๐๐พโฏ๐, โ ๐ธ๐ถ๐ ๐ปโฏโฏ๐ ๐พ๐. โ ๐โฏ๐โฏ๐๐ทโฏ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ๐ โ ๐๐ฝโด๐๐๐น๐'๐ ๐๐โด๐. โฌ๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐ โ๐๐, ๐พ๐ป โ ๐๐๐พ๐๐ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐น ๐ถ๐๐, โ ๐ฟ๐๐๐ ๐๐โด๐.
๐ฏ๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐โด๐โ.
โ๐ถ๐โฏ๐'๐ ๐โด๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐โด๐โฏ. ๐ฏ๐ฝโฏ๐'๐โฏ ๐ถ๐๐ ๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ. โฌ๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐๐พ๐๐ ๐ปโฏโฏ๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ถ๐.
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Date: 2021-09-03 03:30 am (UTC)Nothing's right. This isn't the city. Isn't even my city. But most everyone I know from Temba's here and got a part in this place like they belong here.
Lark says it's magic. Makes as much sense as anything. Sometimes if I sit real quiet, I can feel it. I remember things I shouldn't know. But in my gut, if I still had any, I just know.
This is wrong.
Haven't lost anyone. They're all here. But it still feels that way.
061021
Date: 2021-06-14 07:22 am (UTC)โ'๐ ๐โด๐ ๐๐๐โฏ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐น๐ถ๐๐๐โฏ๐๐ โ ๐๐ถ๐ ๐๐ถ๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐๐ถ๐โฏ ๐โด๐๐ โด๐ป ๐๐ถ๐๐๐โฏ๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ โ ๐๐พ๐๐โฏ๐๐โฏ๐น ๐๐๐ ๐โด โด๐ท๐๐พ๐โฏ๐๐ถ๐โฏ โฏ๐โฏ๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ ๐ถ๐โด๐๐๐น ๐๐, ๐ท๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐โด๐โฏ๐๐, ๐พ๐ ๐โดโด๐ โฏ๐โฏ๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ. ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฝโด๐โฏ โฏ๐โด๐๐พโด๐๐, โฏ๐โฏ๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ท๐ถ๐น โด๐โฏ๐, ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐๐ถ๐น๐โฏ๐๐, ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ปโฏ๐ถ๐- ๐๐๐น๐นโฏ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐โฏ๐โฏ ๐ถ๐๐ ๐ฟ๐๐๐ -โโด๐โฏ-. โ ๐โด๐'๐ ๐๐พโฏ, ๐พ๐ ๐๐ถ๐ ๐ป๐โฏโฏ๐พ๐โ ๐พ๐ ๐พ๐๐ โด๐๐ ๐๐ถ๐. ๐ฉโด๐ ๐ธ๐ถ๐๐พ๐โ ๐ถ๐ทโด๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ? ๐๐ทโด๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐น ๐ทโฏโฏ๐ ๐ทโด๐๐ฝโฏ๐๐พ๐โ ๐โด๐, ๐ถ๐ทโด๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ โฏโด๐ ๐โฏ ๐๐ฝโด ๐ปโด๐โโด๐, โด๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ฝโด๐๐๐น ๐ทโฏ ๐นโด๐โฏ? โ๐'๐ ๐ถ ๐ฝ๐โโฏ ๐โฏ๐พโ๐ฝ๐ โด๐ป๐ป ๐โด๐๐ ๐๐ฝโด๐๐๐นโฏ๐๐. โฌ๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ'๐ ๐โด๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ ๐โฏ๐ป๐ โด๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ โด๐๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐๐พ๐นโฏ โด๐ป ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐, ๐ถ๐๐น ๐พ๐ ๐พ๐ โด๐ฝ ๐โด ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐ธโด๐๐น.
๐ฏ๐ฝ๐ถ๐'๐ ๐โด๐ ๐๐ฝโด โ ๐ถ๐. โ๐ป ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐'๐ ๐ถ ๐ฝ๐พ๐๐ โด๐ป 7, โ ๐นโด๐'๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐ ๐โด ๐ทโฏ ๐ฝ๐พ๐.
โ ๐๐โด๐ โ'๐โฏ ๐ทโฏโฏ๐ ๐ถ๐โด๐พ๐น๐พ๐โ ๐๐ถ๐๐๐พ๐โ ๐ถ๐ทโด๐๐ ๐พ๐. โฑโด๐ ๐โฏ ๐พ๐ ๐ปโฏโฏ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐โฏ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ'๐ ๐โด๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ ๐โด ๐๐ถ๐๐ ๐ถ๐ทโด๐๐. ๐ฒโฏ ๐ถ๐๐ โโด๐ ๐ ๐๐๐โฏ๐น ๐พ๐๐โด ๐โด๐โฏ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ ๐ธ๐๐ถ๐๐, ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐๐ป๐๐๐๐ ๐โฏ ๐โฏ๐โฏ ๐ถ๐ท๐โฏ ๐โด ๐ท๐โฏ๐ถ๐ ๐ป๐โฏโฏ โด๐ป ๐พ๐. ๐ฏ๐ฝ๐พ๐โ๐ ๐ถ๐โฏ ๐ท๐ถ๐ธ๐ ๐โด ๐โด๐๐๐ถ๐ ๐โด๐, โด๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐โฏ๐ถ๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐'๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ โ'๐น ๐๐พ๐โฏ ๐โด ๐๐ถ๐. โ๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐ถ๐โโฏ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐โด๐ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐โฏ ๐ถ๐ โฏ๐๐๐๐ถ ๐โฏ๐ โด๐ป ๐โฏ๐โด๐๐พโฏ๐ ๐๐โด๐ธ๐๐พ๐โ ๐ถ๐โด๐๐๐น ๐พ๐ ๐โด๐๐ ๐ฝโฏ๐ถ๐น. โ ๐โฏ๐โฏ๐๐ทโฏ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ๐ ๐ถ๐ทโด๐๐ ๐ ๐โฏ-๐ขโด๐๐นโฏ๐ ๐โโฏ ๐ธ๐๐๐๐๐โฏ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ โ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐โฏ ๐โด ๐ท๐๐๐พ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐๐โด๐๐พ๐โ. โณ๐ถ๐โฏ๐ ๐โฏ ๐โด๐๐นโฏ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ถ๐๐ โฏ๐โฏ๐๐โด๐โฏ โฏ๐๐โฏ ๐พ๐ ๐นโฏ๐ถ๐๐พ๐โ ๐๐พ๐๐ฝ. โณ๐ถ๐๐ทโฏ โ'๐ ๐๐พ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐ป๐๐พ๐โ ๐โดโด ๐๐๐ธ๐ฝ, ๐ท๐๐ โ'๐๐ ๐ฟ๐๐๐ ๐ทโฏ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐โด โด๐โฏ ๐โดโด๐๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐โฏ ๐ธ๐โด๐๐โฏ๐โฏ๐น. โ๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐โฏ๐ถ๐๐๐พ๐โฏ, ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ท๐ถ๐'๐ โโฏ๐๐๐พ๐โ ๐ โด๐ ๐๐๐ถ๐. ๐ฒ๐ถ๐๐'๐ ๐โฏ๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐พ๐๐โฏ๐๐๐พโด๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐โฏ๐ถ๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐โฏ๐ถ๐โด๐, ๐ท๐๐ ๐พ๐ป ๐พ๐ ๐ฝโฏ๐๐ ๐ ๐ โฏโด๐ ๐โฏ โด๐๐ ๐ถ ๐๐พ๐๐๐โฏ, ๐โฏ๐๐, โ'๐ ๐ป๐พ๐โฏ ๐๐พ๐๐ฝ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐.
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Date: 2021-09-03 03:31 am (UTC)I'm not sure that the darkness I saw was the same sort of Darkness that I witnessed try to obliterate everything around us, but in that moment, it took everything. All those emotions, even the bad ones, the sadness, the fear- suddenly they were all just -gone-. I won't lie, it was freeing in its own way. Not caring about anything? About all the things that had been bothering you, about the people who forgot, or the things that should be done? It's a huge weight off your shoulders. But then there's nothing left on the other side of that, and it is oh so very cold.
That's not who I am. If that's a hint of 7, I don't want to be him.
I know I've been avoiding talking about it. For me it feels like there's nothing to talk about. We all got pulled into something crazy, and thankfully we were able to break free of it. Things are back to normal now, or at least that's what I'd like to say. It's strange when you have an extra set of memories knocking around in your head. I remember things about pre-Golden Age culture that I have no business knowing. Makes me wonder what all everyone else is dealing with. Maybe I'm simplifying too much, but I'll just be happy that no one looks at me crosseyed. In the meantime, the bar's getting popular. Wasn't really my intention at least in reason, but if it helps people out a little, well, I'm fine with that.
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Date: 2021-09-02 10:42 pm (UTC)โ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐โฏ ๐ป๐พ๐๐ถ๐๐๐ โโด๐๐โฏ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐โฏโด๐ ๐๐พโ๐ ๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐พ๐ ๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ท๐ถ๐. โโดโด๐๐ โ๐โฏ๐ถ๐- โ ๐๐โฏ๐๐ธ๐ฝโฏ๐น ๐พ๐ โด๐๐ ๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ ๐ท๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐๐ถ๐ธ๐ โด๐ป ๐ธโด๐โด๐ ๐ถ๐๐น ๐โฏ๐๐, ๐๐พโ๐ฝ๐๐พ๐โ, ๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐น๐๐ ๐นโดโฏ๐ ๐พ๐ ๐ถ๐๐ ๐ฟ๐๐๐๐พ๐ธโฏ.
[A sketch of the neon sign for the Deep End. ]
๐ฒโฏ'๐โฏ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐น ๐โด๐โฏ ๐ โฏโด๐ ๐โฏ ๐ โด๐ ๐ ๐พ๐โ ๐๐ ๐ถ๐โด๐๐๐น ๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ, ๐ถ๐๐น ๐ถ ๐๐ฝโด๐โฏ โด๐๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐ธ๐พ๐๐ ๐ปโด๐ โฏ๐๐ ๐โด๐๐พ๐โ. ๐ฏ๐ฝ๐ถ๐'๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ โ ๐๐ โฏ๐๐ ๐ถ โโดโด๐น ๐ธ๐ฝ๐๐๐ โด๐ป ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐พโด๐๐ ๐โด๐๐๐ฝ, ๐ถ๐ธ๐๐๐ถ๐๐๐. ๐ขโด๐ ๐ถ ๐โด๐โ๐ฝ ๐๐ถ๐ , ๐๐พโ๐ฝ๐ ๐โฏ๐ป๐พ๐โฏ ๐พ๐ ๐โด๐โฏ. ๐ฏ๐๐๐๐ โด๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐โฏ๐ ๐ ๐๐ถ๐ธโฏ ๐พ๐ ๐ถ ๐๐พ๐๐โด๐ ๐พ๐๐ถโโฏ โด๐ป ๐ฏโฏ๐๐ท๐ถ, ๐ฟ๐๐๐ โด๐ ๐ถ ๐๐๐พโ๐ฝ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ถ๐๐โฏ๐ ๐๐ธ๐ถ๐โฏ, โ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐๐. ๐๐๐โด, ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐พโด๐๐ ๐พ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ท๐พ๐๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐๐ถ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐โฏ ๐ทโฏโฏ๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ข๐๐ถ๐, ๐ท๐๐ ๐ฝโด๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐โด๐๐๐ โด๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐ถ๐๐โด๐โฏ'๐ โ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐โด ๐ป๐ถ๐.
๐ฉโด โด๐โฏ'๐ ๐น๐พ๐๐ถ๐ ๐ โฏ๐ถ๐โฏ๐น ๐๐ถ๐โฏ๐๐, ๐โด๐ ๐๐พ๐๐ธโฏ โโด๐๐๐พ๐น๐ถ๐. ๐ฏ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ โด๐โฏ ๐๐๐พ๐๐ ๐๐๐พ๐โ๐, ๐ท๐๐ โ โ๐โฏ๐๐ โ ๐ธ๐ถ๐'๐ ๐ทโฏ ๐๐ถ๐น ๐ปโด๐ ๐พ๐. ๐ฎ๐ฝโฏ'๐ ๐ท๐ถ๐ธ๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ ๐๐ฝโฏ โด๐โ๐ฝ๐๐ถ ๐ทโฏ. ๐ฏ๐ฝ๐ถ๐'๐ โโดโด๐น โฏ๐โด๐โ๐ฝ ๐ปโด๐ ๐โฏ, โด๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐ฝโด๐๐๐น ๐ทโฏ. ๐ข๐โฏ๐๐ ๐พ๐'๐ ๐๐ ๐ป๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐ปโด๐ โโฏ๐๐๐พ๐โ ๐๐ ๐ฝโด๐ โฏ๐ ๐๐ ๐ถ๐ทโด๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ ๐ถ๐๐โด๐ ๐๐ถ๐ธโฏ๐ ๐ถ๐๐น ๐ถ๐๐.
๐ฏ๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ'๐ ๐ทโฏโฏ๐ ๐โด๐โฏ ๐พ๐๐ป๐๐๐ โด๐ป ๐๐พ๐น๐, ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐ธ๐ฝ ๐พ๐ ๐ธโด๐๐ธโฏ๐๐๐พ๐โ, ๐ท๐๐ โ๐พ๐โฏ๐ โฏ๐โฏ๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ โฏ๐๐โฏ, ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐โฏ๐โฏ๐ ๐ ๐ถ๐๐ถ๐โฏ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐โ๐๐พ๐พ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐โฏ ๐โฏ๐ ๐๐ ๐ปโด๐ ๐ท๐๐พ๐โ๐พ๐โ ๐พ๐ '๐ฝโฏ๐โดโฏ๐' ๐โฏโฏ๐๐ ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐๐ ๐ท๐โด๐ถ๐น. ๐๐ ๐โฏ๐ถ๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐'๐โฏ ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐. ๐ฏ๐ฝ๐พ๐ โด๐โฏ ๐๐พ๐น, ๐๐๐ทโฏ๐๐โด? โ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐๐ ๐โด๐'๐น โโฏ๐ ๐ถ๐โด๐โ ๐๐พ๐๐ฝ ๐ฝ๐พ๐. โฑโฏ๐ถ๐๐โฏ๐๐, โฏ๐ถโโฏ๐ ๐โด ๐โฏโฏ ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐๐ โด๐๐ ๐โฏ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ๐. โโฏ ๐ถ๐๐โฏ๐น ๐โฏ ๐โด ๐โฏ๐ถ๐ธ๐ฝ ๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐ฝโด๐ ๐โด ๐๐ธโด๐๐. โ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐๐ ๐ฝโฏ'๐ ๐ถ๐๐โฏ๐ถ๐น๐ โโด๐ ๐ถ โโดโด๐น ๐ท๐ถ๐โฏ๐๐พ๐โฏ ๐โด ๐๐๐ถ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐ฝ. โโด๐ โฏ๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐โดโด โฏ๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐โด ๐๐๐ถ๐๐ ๐๐๐ถ๐พ๐๐พ๐โ โ๐๐๐โฏ๐๐?
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Date: 2021-09-03 03:31 am (UTC)I have finally gotten that neon sign up and lit up in the bar. Looks great- I sketched it out here but the lack of color and well, lighting, hardly does it any justice.
[A sketch of the neon sign for the Deep End. ]
We've had more people popping up around here, and a whole other city for exploring. That's where I spent a good chunk of the previous month, actually. Got a rough map, might refine it some. Turns out that this new place is a mirror image of Temba, just on a slightly smaller scale, I think. Also, the previous inhabitants may very well have been the Graq, but how that works out is anyone's guess so far.
No one's disappeared lately, not since Holliday. That one still stings, but I guess I can't be mad for it. She's back where she oughta be. That's good enough for me, or it should be. Guess it's my fault for getting my hopes up about Sparrow races and all.
There's been some influx of kids, which is concerning, but given everything else, whatever parameters the Agrii have set up for bringing in 'heroes' seems pretty broad. At least they're pretty spunky. This one kid, Alberto? I think you'd get along with him. Fearless, eager to see and try out new things. He asked me to teach him how to scout. I think he's already got a good baseline to start with. How early is too early to start training Hunters?