[This note is slightly crumpled around the edges.]
I don't play well with loss. I think I've written this before, somewhere. Not here. Doesn't matter, I guess, but the point still stands.
Guess it's my fault for letting myself get close, for playing this out like a vacation. I knew from the start it wasn't going to be a longterm, but it was a chance to do something different and not worry about Vanguard business and whatever else we've got brewing out there. And I'm sure there's something brewing out there. Ikora won't say, but there's something that's been on her mind and that saying about actions speaking louder than words? That's true.
Where was I? Right. Loss. Things went from quiet to panic in a hot two seconds. Just like that, I had to tackle the thought that I wasn't going to see two of my favorite troublemakers anymore. And that hit hard.
Jon, he just vanished. How do you figure? Between the creepy messages that screwed up my tablet's backlog and him not being in his usual hole- and then there's just this feeling you get, you know? Next thing I know, I see a falling star.
There is no brushing off that kind of impact from that kind of height. I should know, I've broken legs leaping across gaps less than half that. And yet, somehow? Tony Stark survived. A mess, but in one piece. And as me and Catra pried him out of that mangled armor...
I've told myself I wouldn't let anything happen to these people. So long as I'm here, this city's my Last City. When we go home...
Okay Cayde, pull yourself together. What happened to optimism? It's fine. We're good. Seize each day- there's a quote or something, isn't there? And when it seems like there's nothing else, I've always got my Queen.
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Date: 2021-05-05 05:56 pm (UTC)โ ๐นโด๐'๐ ๐ ๐๐ถ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐ฝ ๐โด๐๐. โ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐๐ โ'๐โฏ ๐๐๐พ๐๐โฏ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐ทโฏ๐ปโด๐โฏ, ๐โด๐โฏ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ. ๐ฉโด๐ ๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ. ๐โดโฏ๐๐'๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐โฏ๐, โ โ๐โฏ๐๐, ๐ท๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ โด๐พ๐๐ ๐๐๐พ๐๐ ๐๐๐ถ๐๐น๐.
๐ข๐โฏ๐๐ ๐พ๐'๐ ๐๐ ๐ป๐ถ๐๐๐ ๐ปโด๐ ๐โฏ๐๐๐พ๐โ ๐๐๐โฏ๐๐ป โโฏ๐ ๐ธ๐โด๐โฏ, ๐ปโด๐ ๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐พ๐โ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐ โด๐๐ ๐๐พ๐โฏ ๐ถ ๐๐ถ๐ธ๐ถ๐๐พโด๐. โ ๐๐โฏ๐ ๐ป๐โด๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐๐๐ถ๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐'๐ โโด๐พ๐โ ๐โด ๐ทโฏ ๐ถ ๐โด๐โ๐โฏ๐๐, ๐ท๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐ถ๐ ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐ธโฏ ๐โด ๐นโด ๐โด๐โฏ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ ๐น๐พ๐ป๐ปโฏ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐น ๐โด๐ ๐โด๐๐๐ ๐ถ๐ทโด๐๐ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐โ๐๐ถ๐๐น ๐ท๐๐๐พ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐โฏ๐โฏ๐ โฏ๐๐โฏ ๐โฏ'๐โฏ โโด๐ ๐ท๐โฏ๐๐พ๐โ โด๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ. ๐๐๐น โ'๐ ๐๐๐โฏ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ'๐ ๐โด๐โฏ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ ๐ท๐โฏ๐๐พ๐โ โด๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ. โ๐โด๐๐ถ ๐โด๐'๐ ๐๐ถ๐, ๐ท๐๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ'๐ ๐โด๐โฏ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐'๐ ๐ทโฏโฏ๐ โด๐ ๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐๐พ๐๐น ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐พ๐โ ๐ถ๐ทโด๐๐ ๐ถ๐ธ๐๐พโด๐๐ ๐๐ โฏ๐ถ๐๐พ๐โ ๐โด๐๐นโฏ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐โด๐๐น๐? ๐ฏ๐ฝ๐ถ๐'๐ ๐๐๐โฏ.
๐ฒ๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ ๐๐ถ๐ โ? โ๐พโ๐ฝ๐. โโด๐๐. ๐ฏ๐ฝ๐พ๐โ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐ป๐โด๐ ๐๐๐พโฏ๐ ๐โด ๐ ๐ถ๐๐พ๐ธ ๐พ๐ ๐ถ ๐ฝโด๐ ๐๐โด ๐โฏ๐ธโด๐๐น๐. ๐ฅ๐๐๐ ๐๐พ๐โฏ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐, โ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐น ๐โด ๐๐ถ๐ธ๐๐โฏ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐๐ฝโด๐โ๐ฝ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ โ ๐๐ถ๐๐'๐ โโด๐พ๐โ ๐โด ๐โฏโฏ ๐๐โด โด๐ป ๐๐ ๐ป๐ถ๐โด๐๐พ๐โฏ ๐๐โด๐๐ท๐โฏ๐๐ถ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐โด๐โฏ. ๐๐๐น ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐น.
๐ฅโด๐, ๐ฝโฏ ๐ฟ๐๐๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐พ๐๐ฝโฏ๐น. โโด๐ ๐นโด ๐โด๐ ๐ป๐พโ๐๐โฏ? โฌโฏ๐๐โฏโฏ๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ ๐ธ๐โฏโฏ๐ ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐๐ถโโฏ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ธ๐โฏ๐โฏ๐น ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ถ๐ท๐โฏ๐'๐ ๐ท๐ถ๐ธ๐๐โดโ ๐ถ๐๐น ๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐โด๐ ๐ทโฏ๐พ๐โ ๐พ๐ ๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐๐๐๐ถ๐ ๐ฝโด๐โฏ- ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ'๐ ๐ฟ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐ปโฏโฏ๐๐พ๐โ ๐โด๐ โโฏ๐, ๐โด๐ ๐๐โด๐? ๐ฉโฏ๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ โ ๐๐โด๐, โ ๐โฏโฏ ๐ถ ๐ป๐ถ๐๐๐พ๐โ ๐๐๐ถ๐.
๐ฏ๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ ๐พ๐ ๐โด ๐ท๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ โด๐ป๐ป ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐พ๐๐น โด๐ป ๐พ๐๐ ๐ถ๐ธ๐ ๐ป๐โด๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐พ๐๐น โด๐ป ๐ฝโฏ๐พโ๐ฝ๐. โ ๐๐ฝโด๐๐๐น ๐๐โด๐, โ'๐โฏ ๐ท๐โด๐โฏ๐ ๐โฏโ๐ ๐โฏ๐ถ๐ ๐พ๐โ ๐ถ๐ธ๐โด๐๐ โ๐ถ๐ ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐ป ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐. ๐๐๐น ๐โฏ๐, ๐โด๐โฏ๐ฝโด๐? ๐ฏโด๐๐ ๐ฎ๐๐ถ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐พ๐โฏ๐น. ๐ ๐โฏ๐๐, ๐ท๐๐ ๐พ๐ โด๐โฏ ๐ ๐พโฏ๐ธโฏ. ๐๐๐น ๐ถ๐ ๐โฏ ๐ถ๐๐น ๐๐ถ๐๐๐ถ ๐ ๐๐พโฏ๐น ๐ฝ๐พ๐ โด๐๐ โด๐ป ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ถ๐โ๐โฏ๐น ๐ถ๐๐โด๐...
โ'๐โฏ ๐โด๐๐น ๐๐๐โฏ๐๐ป โ ๐โด๐๐๐น๐'๐ ๐โฏ๐ ๐ถ๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ โฏ๐ ๐โด ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ ๐ โฏโด๐ ๐โฏ. ๐ฎโด ๐โด๐โ ๐ถ๐ โ'๐ ๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ, ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐ ๐ธ๐พ๐๐'๐ ๐๐ โ๐ถ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐. ๐ฒ๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐โฏ โโด ๐ฝโด๐โฏ...
๐ช๐๐ถ๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐นโฏ, ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐โด๐๐๐โฏ๐๐ป ๐โดโโฏ๐๐ฝโฏ๐. ๐ฒ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ โฏ๐โฏ๐น ๐โด โด๐ ๐๐พ๐๐พ๐๐? โ๐'๐ ๐ป๐พ๐โฏ. ๐ฒโฏ'๐โฏ โโดโด๐น. ๐ฎโฏ๐พ๐โฏ โฏ๐ถ๐ธ๐ฝ ๐น๐ถ๐- ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ'๐ ๐ถ ๐๐โด๐โฏ โด๐ ๐โด๐โฏ๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ, ๐พ๐๐'๐ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ? ๐๐๐น ๐๐ฝโฏ๐ ๐พ๐ ๐โฏโฏ๐๐ ๐๐พ๐โฏ ๐๐ฝโฏ๐โฏ'๐ ๐โด๐๐ฝ๐พ๐โ โฏ๐๐โฏ, โ'๐โฏ ๐ถ๐๐๐ถ๐๐ โโด๐ ๐๐ ๐ฌ๐โฏโฏ๐.
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Date: 2021-09-03 03:29 am (UTC)I don't play well with loss. I think I've written this before, somewhere. Not here. Doesn't matter, I guess, but the point still stands.
Guess it's my fault for letting myself get close, for playing this out like a vacation. I knew from the start it wasn't going to be a longterm, but it was a chance to do something different and not worry about Vanguard business and whatever else we've got brewing out there. And I'm sure there's something brewing out there. Ikora won't say, but there's something that's been on her mind and that saying about actions speaking louder than words? That's true.
Where was I? Right. Loss. Things went from quiet to panic in a hot two seconds. Just like that, I had to tackle the thought that I wasn't going to see two of my favorite troublemakers anymore. And that hit hard.
Jon, he just vanished. How do you figure? Between the creepy messages that screwed up my tablet's backlog and him not being in his usual hole- and then there's just this feeling you get, you know? Next thing I know, I see a falling star.
There is no brushing off that kind of impact from that kind of height. I should know, I've broken legs leaping across gaps less than half that. And yet, somehow? Tony Stark survived. A mess, but in one piece. And as me and Catra pried him out of that mangled armor...
I've told myself I wouldn't let anything happen to these people. So long as I'm here, this city's my Last City. When we go home...
Okay Cayde, pull yourself together. What happened to optimism? It's fine. We're good. Seize each day- there's a quote or something, isn't there? And when it seems like there's nothing else, I've always got my Queen.